Beyond the Darkness by Angie Fenimore

Author:Angie Fenimore [Fenimore, Angie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fenimore, Angie, Christian biography, Near-death experiences, Visions, Hell
Publisher: New York : Bantam Books
Published: 1995-03-04T05:00:00+00:00

When he left, I roused myself just long enough to pour some cereal for the boys, change the tapes on the stereo, and take the phone off the hook. Moving, even breathing brought an excruciating awareness that I was still alive and able to do damage. Hiding under my blanket for most of the day, I watched my boys play on the living-room floor. Their faces were so sweet. The thought that I had caused my sons suffering made my heart and stomach ache. This final act I was now contemplating would be a terrible shock to them, and though there had been so many signs along the way, it would be a shock to Richard too. I hoped that they would understand that my solution was an act of love, offering them all the chance for a happier life. Perhaps this was how my mother had felt, that leaving would save her children. I had become poisonous to everyone around me.

Richard brought home dinner that night, and pleading a touch of the flu, I stayed on the couch until he and the boys went upstairs. I could hear Richard moving fitfully about for hours, getting in and out of bed, pacing the floor. Finally, at two a.m. he came down the stairs and stood over me. "Are you coming to bed?" he asked.

"I don't feel good. I slept all day. I think I'll just lie down here awhile," I replied. His hesitant concern sharpened the tension between us. He knew that I was in trouble, and he wanted to make me come upstairs with him. But after my recent disappearing act, he was afraid to press the issue. "Go on, Richard," I told him. "I want to be alone."

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